Me my best friend

I have been able to overcome the frustrating feeling, feeling of letting go, letting go things that really mattered once.  At first I used to get frustrated when I was not able to catch my school bus in time or when I was not able to reach in time for a movie premier. It felt so bad to lose money as well in a lottery ticket.

It was always a shock; I locked myself in my room for hours and sometimes days.  It felt so bad; sometimes I used to get upset when a close buddy of mine won’t show up when I needed him around. I was so possessive, that I would get frustrated when I needed to go back home to finish my homework and he would stay back playing with other friends.

I was not ready to let go. It was always impossible for me. But nature has its own way of teaching you the lessons you refuse to take. Gradually, I started learning that letting go opens up new avenues and prospects that you never would have experienced without losing things that you keep in hand so tightly that there is no space for anything new or there is no way for something exciting, to get into your hands as you keep your fists firmly bunged.

So without me, ever noticing the reason, it started happening. I had to let go my good friends in school when I finished elementary school and joined high school far away from home.  Then the bigger things were lost, when we moved from that city where I was born and I grew up.

But the biggest loss was losing relationships and losing the most important ones. And losing the closest relations is lot more painful and extremely difficult when only the relationship dies, not the person. I was lost, torn apart; felt like something died inside me and sensed the most awful thing “self- pity” for months.  It seemed like eternity, felt like it would never end.

But you know what? It didn't. It was over too, I started feeling better and I was OK and you know, I am now a master of letting it all go. I was not afraid to lose.  Now it’s not a big deal losing relationships, because I have learnt, that when someone departs from your life for good, there is always an empty space, a vacuity and we all know that it’s a law of nature that vacuity or vacuums are never left vacant, always filled  swiftly.

I was not petrified to lose anything now. I slacken my fists; felt so good, so optimistic. I become intrepid soul, a liberated soul blessed with the foretaste of The Divine Sufficiency.

Now I am never alone and a friend of myself. I discovered that it was wonderful spending time with me, talking to myself criticizing, joking and teasing myself. I get lonely without me and I miss myself when I don't find time to spend with me. I don’t even get bored. It feels, time is always  too short to spend with myself.

It was not that I am not happy when I am not alone or with people around me, It is just that I am not scared, bored or upset being alone. Instead I love spending time with me. Have you ever been able to that to yourself too? Try it..:)

You have gun, we have camera

One of the most inspiring image that I have ever seen in my life. This is a lesson for those easy quitters who surrender against inequality, cruelty, cheating and dishonesty. Those who always tell you to leave it to God and never stand up against evil. I would say “Tolerance becomes a crime when applied to evil"

You are an equal partner of every dishonest cruel corrupt person when you tolerate evil. There is no more neutrality in the world. You either have to be part of the solution, or you're going to be part of the problem.".

Just see how easy it is to stand up against evil when you see something wrong in your surroundings and you just pull out that fancy cell phone from your pocket and take a picture or make a video clip of that and post it to social media you are using on the internet just for fun and at least e-mail, or share it via mobile app with all your contacts if you feel difficulty to e-mail it to the concerned authorities. Just for once in your life think of earning something for afterlife.

I understand that we are under enormous media pressure within our society.  Especially the electronic media news channels and the other so called entertainment channels supporting these news channels with the same kind of thoughts behind almost all those programs called dramas, movies and talk shows. The real use of camera has been disguised under the commercialism and the so called journalists prefer to make a live video of people dying and suffering instead of providing help at the spot because, exposing misery, corruption, dishonesty creates waves of excitement in public and they get huge ratings and traffic over the channel or website, exploiting religious beliefs and disfiguring them in the name of  liberty, broadmindedness. Portraying clergy and religious scholars as dishonest evil people makes you spend more on fulsomeness and security. Our society has become a victim of all this media created illusion and deceptions. As a result we have a sacred, frightened mentally inept people in our society being controlled by the media that makes them spend on what they like them to spend on. Have you ever thought of buying something that you never seen on TV or a magazine or newspaper? Just ask yourself and your contacts about it. How does this happen? Do you know? 

Why Stay like this? and let them show you what they want you to see?

Lovely mind

The very moment he saw her picture, he felt mesmerized with her lovely face and she fascinated towards him from the magic in his words. He e-mailed her to get to know the woman behind that devastating exquisiteness and after conversing with her he discovered that they have things in common, even after barely knowing her she makes him feel amazing and even with the combination of intelligence and grace she does not present an attitude that she is snooty. 

By the time their personal information was exchanged he found a way to message and call her anytime he wants, then the next day he had the retrograde amnesia of everything that had transpired between the two of them, he feels sick in the head and he doesn't want this treasure to know something that really isn’t him, so he sends her a message revealing his whole situation, because to this woman he doesn’t want to maintain a constant front.

Days go by after revealing who he really was, he sees her log online, but the fear that is inside him makes him not want to contact her, so he stays distant and far. Finally, when he can’t hold back his feelings for this woman that had just recently captivated his heart, he bravely e-mailed her with a passive statement asking her how she is doing, he needs to communicate with her so badly, but the paranoia and fear keeps him apart. A day later he receives a message back from her, she doesn’t appear to be distant which he finds rather shocking, she knows everything about him and she is not running away scared, and he sends a message back and once again his heart begins to stir.

He asks, “Did you read the messages that I sent you?” Yes” she replies, all that fear is gone and he makes a safe mental landing, then in a flash of thoughts he realizes that not only is she intelligent, beautiful, and artistic, but she is also understanding.

She doesn’t judge him for who he is; he is just a human being with a big heart in her eyes, and after that moment of realization he realizes that she maybe distant in another state, and that her personality shines brighter than any star. One may feel like they are damaged goods, which leads people to not put out their cards on the table, but he just learned that there are women out there that are understanding and are not lost in the judgmental woods. 

For those of you that have lost hope in finding someone that will accept who you are, the trick is to feel very thankful and to stop looking, Cause when you are in that state of gratitude, you become a person who only wants to stay on the giviving end, not like most of the people out there on the reciving end, looking and witing for love . When you become grateful it takes over your life, and you can't find enough opportunities in a day to give. You give joy, you give love, you give money, you give appreciation, you give compliments, and you give kindness. You give the best of yourself in your job, in your relationships, and to strangers.

You will know when you have really found true gratitude, because you will become a giver. One who is truly grateful cannot be anything else. Then soon you find her in your proximity, and not so distant that your passion is squandered, because they are not far. Don’t lose hope and don’t let your passion refrain, because that person is out there with a beautiful mind and soul as yours.